Why doesn't god help me????? :(?

im so confused as to why god doesn't help me i love him i humble my self and ask for forgiveness every night.. i pray to jesus i read my bible i fall to sleep listening to worship music.. and i still wake up at night time feeling like my bed is shaking.. everything goes wrong my life has been a struggle since i was born my mum and dad were both murdered iv never had a stable home i have the worst anxiety and fears of everything i believe satan has a hook of fear and no matter how much i pray to be released of it i never am i feel like i love my heavenly father and christ so much but maybe im loving a lie? the bible says that god is a provider just believe and worship him and he will provide? i do and my life never gets easier its falling apart day by day and i feel like giving up i just want to stop living sometimes.. is there something im not doing right and this is why god isn't helping me?